Praying for Wisdom

You may not believe me but yes.... it is snowing outside. This is Michigan though--no one would expect anything less. Man I hate snow--alas I will never escape it's grasp because I will not move south. I will move west but not south (not for any length of time that is). I was so hyper this morning. I had coffee it always does it to me. but now I'm a little tired. I however do not have class so maybe I'll take a nap. Then read my Psych chapter and go to psych of course. Oh the dilemma this poses

I'm almost starting my classes this semester. I have 35 minutes of freedom left. I'm so nervous. I don't know why i am always so nervous but it's the first day of classes and I really just want to run away. I think part of the reason I am so nervous is because I keep getting a doomsday report from every direction. Everyone thinks that everything is going down the tubes and we shouldn't have a good outlook on life but.... what if some of us would like to keep the little bit of hope that we have left. hope of a better life, hope that our dreams will come true, hope that I will have time to be able to get married and raise the family that I want so badly to have. I want to keep my hope--so all of you who no longer have hope--stop raining on my parade. i have hope that the future holds something better for all of us--so keep dreaming people and remember to forget the economy for a few minutes everyday and just simply remember your dreams! Thanks for letting me ...

Back at my coffee shop just in time to start school again next week. I'm so not ready. I have to work on Thursday and i haven't been there in so long. I really do not want to go there. i feel like I should have a different job, i want a job that I actually enjoy--is that too much to ask. My friend Crystal Bower passed away Sunday night and i got the news Monday afternoon. I'm praying that her 5 year-old son Gaige is doing okay. Crystal did not have the best family life but I think Gaige's dad will take him in and love him like the rest of his family. i hope that my faith in him is not wasted. Sam and i searched for a bread store in Midland because we want really good heavy bread again like the stuff that she got from the Wealthy Street Bakery in Grand Rapids. Speaking of Sam, she wants to go visiting friends and dropping off gifts--I think that might call for a roadtrip.

It's the new year already! I cannot believe how every year goes by so fast and so slow at the exact same time. I am sitting next to the man of my dreams. He's everything that I never thought i was allowed to have and everything that I finally admitted that I want. I love him more than words could ever express. I used to be intimidated by his family but now they are simply part of my family. We share things that I never thought I would with "his" family when the time came but like I said now they are "mine" too. I am going to plan a couple's dinner with his mom around Valentine's Day! He hates the holiday--he says it's from Hallmark but I think this will make it special for me anyway. Side note--he always participates for my sake anyway. i told you he was amazing--you didn't believe me-well now you should. Hope your new years resolutions are starting off on the right foot. My new years resolution is to exercise at least once a week (baby ...

I'm finished. It's done! The semester is complete. Well actually I have to attend class tomorrow but I have nothing to do in that class except listen to the presenters. I'm so excited!!! Christmas Play is coming up soon! I might be sewing costumes until my ears fall off--that was really random it may have made more sense to say until my eyes pop out. Anyway. I will probably get out the sewing machine and go to town!! Christmas gifts are almost complete! Okay that's a lie--I have a few more things to get. I still don't know what to get my dad--he has everything! ttyl

i'm still in the coffeeshop and now I have just heard possibly the worst conversation ever. I just heard a guy telling a girl, "no guy ever wants sloppy seconds". Newsflash---No guy under any circumstances should ever speak to a woman in this manner. And now he is talking about a girl who flirted with a guy and got a $5 tip--whoopy--please lets tell the entire world. But back to my soap box. Never should someone of the male persuasion talk to someone of the female persuasion in this manner. It just is not right. I'm not a delicate flower but I still need to be talk to gently. It is the man's job to have male friends that he can say certain things to and he needs to keep his language around a woman clean or at least keep the vulgarity to a minimum. The next point is that women need to go back to being feminine. Dress up once in a while, try to look good when you are going to see the man of your life. Shower if you have one available right before you will s...

Spending time with the love of my life... we're only at a coffee shop and we are on separate computers. We have high schoolers surrounding us. Oddly, I feel on odd sense of being at home among them. They are acting stupid. I feel like I could too if I really wanted to. I love Justin Robert Clarkson. He is the most amazing man that I have ever met. He spends time with me, not always doing something with just me and I feel loved, protected and safe. he is everything to me. Sometimes I just don't understand the silence and then it isn't even quiet anymore and that reminds me that I am supposed to cherish every moment not because of all the other moments but simply because every moment is different.