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HOPE

I'm almost starting my classes this semester. I have 35 minutes of freedom left. I'm so nervous. I don't know why i am always so nervous but it's the first day of classes and I really just want to run away.

I think part of the reason I am so nervous is because I keep getting a doomsday report from every direction. Everyone thinks that everything is going down the tubes and we shouldn't have a good outlook on life but.... what if some of us would like to keep the little bit of hope that we have left. hope of a better life, hope that our dreams will come true, hope that I will have time to be able to get married and raise the family that I want so badly to have.


I want to keep my hope--so all of you who no longer have hope--stop raining on my parade. i have hope that the future holds something better for all of us--so keep dreaming people and remember to forget the economy for a few minutes everyday and just simply remember your dreams!

Thanks for letting me vent

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