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Encouragement Needed

I'm feeling like I should be doing something more with my life. I want to be a woman that people look up to for accomplishing my goals and being a Christ centered woman. I want to be beautiful on the inside and that would radiate to the outside. I want to be a loving wife and then eventually a mother (not too soon though). I want to be an encouraging person to others. I want to be able to tell people how God is working in my life and really believe every word that I am saying. I miss the times when I was so encouraged. Satan has a foothold in my life and I want to knock him out. He is able to tell me that I am not good enough or that I am failing. I go through both of these feelings on a daily basis and this isn't fair anymore. I want to be in charge of my own life and my own feelings and my own thoughts. I want to live for Christ because he has been such a huge part of my life. I want to be able to make a difference in the lives of the youth around our church and at camp because they need to be influenced by someone who is influenced by God instead of having the influence of the world.

Ah now that I have that off my chest, maybe I will be able to go to class and get something done.

God Bless!

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