Praying for Wisdom

Invisible Mom It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, 'Can't you see I'm on the phone?' Obviously not; no one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I'm invisible. The invisible Mom. Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more ! Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this?? Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, 'What time is it?' I'm a satellite guide to answer, 'What number is the Disney Channel?' I'm a car to order, 'Right around 5:30, please.' I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated summ...

I starting to comprehend the need for prayer. i mean I have always hypothetically understood that prayer was a requirement but now I am starting to see the need for it in my daily life. I really need prayer when I am being annoyed by the fact that i cannot block people out very well and I have a hard time saying "no" to certain people and I cannot make some people leave my life no matter how dire the need for them to stop influencing me is. I need a prayer group and I'm not sure how to start. Once again I'm being annoyed with my inability to tune people out and my computer is not cooperating very well.

I feel like the world is simply giving up on bettering itself. I want to see things get better but I also am intelligent enough to realize that things are going to get worse before they get better. I had lunch with a great Christian friend today who's views on society are very similar to mine. We look at life from a very similar background and I feel like we are meant to be good friends. Family is important for both of us. We were talking about life after college and the prospect is scary because of how unstable the world is and we don't know what will be there for us when we finally do decide what we want to do with our lives. Shouldn't someone be teaching our generation how it is that we are supposed to be making these decisions? I feel like no one ever taught me the proper way to go about making an important life decision. My family and church members have always told me to pray to God about it but when do i know what answer he is giving me? Because I'm prett...